My biggest fear. What if there are problems again? To terminate a second time would be even more life altering and devastating. I would be so ashamed and embarrassed. I know you are thinking stop being negative.
Ga Ga keeps telling me if something goes wrong, you will be okay. It's almost like she knows I don't believe that but she is enforcing me to think that way.
I know I'm strong, I know I can do hard things. I just don't want to ever again do anything hard. I know not likely, ever. I want ease, bliss, and everything to go smoothly.